Middle School

I'm so annoyed.

I love Jessica to death. She's such a good person and I consider her like family, just as I consider Sara family, or Ruth, Aaron, Stu, Miles, Travis, Amber, Amy etc. you get the point.

But it's been 6 years since we've known each other and she still hasn't figured out my sense of humor. She still hasn't figured out that sometimes I am not 100% clear as to what I am trying to say.

Last Sunday, she went to Riverview instead of Mason for church, which suprised me because she was complaining to ME about Sara going to Riverview with Aaron...

So I sent her a text message that said, quoting her "'I'll never go to Riverview'"

Ok. I can easily see how that could be taken as a sarcastic remark meant to piss her off.

But in all honesty, I was just messing with her. I was just joking!!! ok?!

Dude, Jess, you've got to learn to be a little more forgiving!!! It was my mistake of not waiting until you could see my face and hear my tone of voice, but seriously, how can you hold a grudge against me when I am trying to tell you that it was just a misunderstanding?

You know me, right? You've known me for 6 years, and you SHOULD realize by now that I have a serious problem with not getting my point across clearly. I don't know what the hell my problem is but for Gods sake I just need you to cut me some slack, I'm TRYING! ok???

It's still pins and needles with you, the SLIGHTEST mistake I make and you stop talking to me, you get all pissed off and give me the cold shoulder.

Well Jess, I have news... I'm not the only guy that does retarded things, so if you ever want to have a good relationship with a guy, you're going to have to learn to accept that guys make mistakes, guys do stupid things and say stupid things sometimes, and don't you doubt for a minute that we feel like complete idiots and want nothing more than to make it right.

Why do you insist on perpetuating these differences between us by bottling everything up and shying away? It doesn't solve anything, it only wastes time... and I'm really getting tired of chasing you, Jessica. If you haven't realized yet, I'm not interested in anything more than a friendship anymore... but to me, our friendship is VERY important and I don't want to give it up that easily, that's why I'm so persistent to make sure we're getting along, which for the most part lately, we have been.

But you need to cool your judgement jets and try to understand that maybe, just maybe I'm not actually trying to piss you off... You tell ME, what logical reason would I have to say something to you that I know would upset you? There is no logical reason, therefore I WOULDN'T do that on purpose...

So once again, I'm sorry for saying it, but if you can't start being a little more forgiving then... I don't know...