Crayz Little Thing Called Love

Well, it's Monday evening, 8PM, and I'm just about to turn in early just to get some extra sleep, so I figured I'd update.

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Today at work, a guy from State News came in and photographed me working on some signs. He's running a story in tomorrows paper about signs, and I'm the photo subject. Cool...

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I'm not wasting any more time with people who seem to only be there to drag me down. I mean I don't mind hanging out with these people, but I'm not going to go out of my way to ensure that I have a solid friendship with them. I'm honestly tired of caring so much about little things... and about these people... It's take too much out of me and my enjoyment of life, so I'm done, really.

I was talking to Amber, and she brought up a good point... You know who your real friends are, because you don't have to work to keep their friendship. You just have to be you.

Hmm.


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No more boyfriend/girlfriend status right off the bat anymore. I'm going to start DATING, meaning, meeting someone, hanging out, getting to know them, and eventually going steady.

I'm thinking of asking this girl Rachel at church to go on a date. She acts like she likes me, flirts an awful lot... She's 18, 2 years is no big deal, but I'm sure people are going to be like "But she's still in high school!!!!"

Yeah, but she's 18. And it's not like that's stopped certain people from either dating or having flings with people even 3 years younger than they...

See, this is what I meant when I said I need to detach from the people who are frustrating me... See how I get? I automatically think everyone is out to get me... because a FEW people are very critical of every move I make, I feel like I have to watch my steps and make sure they've got nothing to give me a hard time about. That's ridiculous.

I've found a good friend in Amber. And Stu. And of course, Ruth lol... But it seems like everybody else is pins and needles. Make one mistake and they get pissed off and don't want to talk to you. I'm sick of that. I don't need that in my life. Who are they to judge me? Who are they to judge ANYBODY else?

Some people have a problem with Miles ditching his friends for his girlfriend, so they say they don't like his girlfriend... And you know what? I don't like what Miles is doing, but Jennifer is awesome! It pisses me off when people say how much they don't like her, when its MILES who is being ridiculous. She was so nice to me during the missions trip, her and Cassie, and Emily, and that whole group of friends, they're really cool and they're just completely ignored and shunned by most of my group of friends.

That's a BIG problem in the church and people REALLY need to grow up and get over it.

I'm more comfortable hanging around with the teens now, because at least with them, I'm not judged so critically as I am with people my age, people who SHOULD have grown out of it, but have not.