Solitare

It's easier to accept that you're not so perfect when you loose yourself in the crowd.

One fault seems so minute when surrounded by many others.

You, in essence, cease to exist at this point; you've become a number, a statistic, one of many who have already walked this path and can tell you where it leads. They can SHOW you where it leads.

It's a curiosity of mine... When people get together, there is one tool that is frequently used to form a bond. That tool is standard in nearly all social gatherings. It has become an unwritten rule, a silent code, a standard implication that in order to hang out or relax, there has to be alcoholic or influential content available.

...and I don't understand it.

I make it very clear to people that I'm not a drinker. Period. 0% alcohol enters my body.

Most people take that to mean that I'm not a partier.

This is exactly what I don't get.

I state that I don't drink... and my statement is automatically associated with partying.

"You don't drink?!?!?! YOU DON'T HAVE FUN?!?!?! You poor, sad little man..."

It seems as if people have lost all faith in the ability to have sober fun. Now I've had a LOT of fun in my life so far, and I can't think of one time where alcohol was nessecary. You know why? Well, because it's NOT nessecary.

I don't go to parties because I don't drink.

"Ok, well you don't have to drink then... STOP JUDGING ME!"

No, I'm not going to go to a party where everyone is getting wasted (ESPECIALLY when you're having it when your parents are out of town, WITHOUT them knowing) and sit there with my Coca Cola in a glass with a couple cubes of ice lowering the temperature of the tasty corbonated beverage to a more desirable level... meanwhile all hell is breaking loose, almost literally.

Sex, profanity, underage alcohol abuse, blatant disreguard for simple moral and ethical value that your church going parents have spent your entire life trying to instill in you so that you may find your way to a much more purposeful life...

Hah, I know one person who reads this is going to think I'm talking about them, when really, I'm talking about someone else entirely... but I'll never say who, because if what I am saying really bothers you, then maybe it means it holds some relevance to your current outlook on life.

I sound so condemning. Yes, I am aware of that. However, before you're offended, you should know the other half to this rationale of mine.

We all have certain short comings. None of us are perfect. I have my problems, but it would be the ignorance of a fool to think that I don't admit to it and attempt to change.

I won't tell anybody about these particular problems, because it's nobody else's business.

...but if I've called your number with this entry... you know who you are... and the person I'm writing this for doesn't even read my blog so I don't know what good it's really doing... you have to understand something.

There is no way to argue that what you are doing is a bad thing. Try to justify your behavior all you want, but there is no justification in it, there is no purpose for it.

Don't think that me saying this puts me on a pedastal or anything, for I've never once claimed to be perfect or without flaw. The ONE thing that makes my sins different, however, is my acceptance that what I do IS wrong, and my willingness to give it all up-even though my efforts constantly fall short.

I refuse to be told that you've tried to give it up, because not only have I discussed the situation with you before, but several other people in the same situation, and none of you have ever even shown the SLIGHTEST concern that what you are doing is a bad thing. No, all you've done is attempted to justify it, and then turn it around on me and try to make me the bad guy.

And that's not what it's even about, so knock it off.

I come to you as a concerned friend, a brother, who wants to see your true colors shine through the mask you're wearing in order to fit in with the rest of the crowd.

It's not easy living a life apart from the crowd, you feel really alone sometimes, but at least you have the confidence that living a pure life will result in a reward that makes it all worth it.

Get upset, insult me, snap at me all you want... that won't change a thing. All you ever seem to do is cop out, find a way to put aside the issue that has been brought up, and continue doing the same things with the ignorant mind frame that you've got the time to make it right with God.

Don't fool yourself, you have NO idea how much time you have left. Are you ready? I'm definitely not ready, I'd go to hell if I died right now. Well I shouldn't say that, one thing about God that is just so amazing is just how mysterious He is, and the fact that we just don't KNOW.

Maybe your heart is right... but the question you need to ask yourself when partaking in these certain activities is...

If Jesus was sitting next to you, would you still be doing these things, and trying to justify them, the way you've tried to justify it with me?

Think about it...