A One-Sided Battle

It's not like I really WANT to be difficult about it... but Jessica and Miles flirting, really, REALLY bothers me. In fact, it annoys the HELL out of me. Rather, MILES annoys the hell out of me.

So I know Jess doesn't like him, she just flirts... that's fine, she flirts with Travis too, that really doesn't bother me at all. Flirting is just flirting, no big deal, I don't blame her one bit for liking to flirt, it's fun.

But when it comes to Miles... there's a whole different tilt to it. He likes her too, and he KNOWS I like her. So what does he do? He tries to make it a competition. He's always trying to look cool in front of her, and trying to show me up... Honestly, whatever, I'm not even trying to impress Jessica, if she doesn't like me for who I am then, well, that sucks for me but that doesn't mean I'm going to change... but Miles goes too far. Whether its trying to pretend he's a cowboy cause she likes cowboys, or talk about country music cause she likes it, or boat about his truck cause she likes trucks, or just act as tough and extreme as possible and show off his scars from when he - like a moron - ran into a quad while on his dirt bike... he's trying to compete with me for Jessica, and the thing is, I'm NOT trying to compete with him! I know she doesn't like me, and I ALSO know she doesn't like him! It's not a competition!!

But he doesn't realize that and he's annoying the HELL out of me... I can't stand to see the two of them flirt because he's trying to throw it in my face.

When it comes to girls, I'm normally a pretty shy guy. I wasn't shy with Megan after the first time we made out... because we made out for 2 straight hours, non stop... and you kind of get over your shyness when you have your tongue in someones mouth lol... but she's the ONLY girl I've been able to open up the real me to. Every other girl... doesn't matter who... I'm very timid. Well, Amy knows the real me, but that's mainly because she was best friends with Megan while Megan and I were dating.

(Sorry... I tend to go off track sometimes when I'm thinking... ah well.)

Anyway, it's not Jessica that's bothering me, she's cool, it's Miles...

I think that's a large part of the reason I tend to hang out with girls more than guys, most every guy friend I've ever had has done something like this to me... Dave stole a few of my girlfriends purposely, Chris did it once, AJ dated girls I liked just to say "look what I got"... it really gets annoying and I'm so sick of being betrayed by "friends".

I'm also sick of people thinking I'm some kind of push over. Ok, I know I look like a wimp... I know I act like one when I don't rough house back with people... but you know what? Nobody has seen me angry, nobody has seen me in the situation where I had to get tough.

Believe me, I can hold my own. I KNOW how to fight, I'm NOT weak in the slightest, I'm just not BIG.. that's all. I have been in 3 fights before and won each of them, 1 of them I didn't even really fight back I just threw the guy on the ground and held him down... well to be honest, the other 2 I didn't really "win", they were broken up before they got far, but I didn't lose either.. more like a draw.

GRRR, I just want to get in a fight with someone just so people can see that I'm not some fucking faggot pussy...